when i'm afraid....

today... i just feel empty with all of things that mix in my life... i feel afraid about it... actually my final... there is no progress this day, when i try work on it, some interuption come mix in my head... it's a public place so i can't tell it here... i try to having some conversation with my friend but nothing happen... still cant work well...
so i try to have conversation with my FATHER... but it still the same... afraid, and i'm not sure about my self... i feel i'll ruin everything in my life and people around me... but at list i found something that will change my life... that is "when i'm afraid i put my trust in YOU"... and it claming me down... even just a word, at list it gave me some inspiration, and makes me feel sleepy now, and hope i can sleep well this night...
just say the word in your heart hope it works for you too...



GOD bless you all...

is it impossible???

ooo... God... it's morning again... thanks for today... and it's a bit cold in malang...
i just can't sleep well last night coz... every night i dream about my final... ooo... GOD it seems will make me crazy...
maybe that was my foult from the begining, coz it's a wrong motivation... i'm so sory, now just want to change that motivation into a right motivation, that i'm doing all of this things for YOU... even i doubt it could be done or not... this feeling is so annoying, it break down my spirit...
when my mother called a few days ago and said: "mo klar jo itu???..."... and i answer: "berdoa jo...".
yeah... it's one and a half month remain... and still not get the turbo on... owww... i know it's my bad... but i know i have a big GOD... even it seems like impossible for me but not for GOD...
what ever it'll take... i'll do my best for YOU... hope what i have now is a faith... coz if i get it done this semester it's because of YOU...
without YOU i'm nothing...

Nothing is impossible... i thrust YOU... and i know U don't let me to walk alone, right??... hold my hand and don't ever let me go again...

designing before coding...

now i'm starting to design the system... and i know taht designing was more complicated than coding...

i'm starting with UML(unified modeling language)... i don't know why.. but i use it for designing it... anybody that know the reason using UML for modeling the system please tell me... hope i'll figured it out later... before may...

and maybe after this i'll use ERD... coz it use for designing the tables... is it true please tell me... coz maybe i got some wrong deccission for designing the system... i'm going to talk about it to my professor, hope he could give me an answer...

sorry my english is poor...